Time has and does not stand still

WOW! it's obvious that I haven't spent time jotting my thoughts on here as I thought I would...while I haven't been sharing my journey I've still been living my life and I think it's time to bring this space up to date.

Last time I wrote we had recently arrived here and everything was in a state of flux, now a half a year later, with a couple of months of winter weather left,(we seem to be adjusting to the cold just fine!), I can say with certainty that the decision to move out to the foot of the rocky mountains was one of the best decisions we (my wife and I) have made to date! and
God has been gracious and we feel blessed to be where we are. Our relationship with one another is deeper and fuller and more in line with each other.

Considering that we left "everything" ; friends, family, jobs and "stability" behind in the move from CA, we are rejoicing to have a great apartment with sweeping views of the mountains, my wife has a thriving private piano studio and I have been working at a job that has helped me get physically in the best shape I've been in in years!

All of the above blessings came together just at the right time within the same week, (the apartment became available to us, my job and my wife getting the leads for her students)! It was so miraculous! Thanks be to God!

I am also at a place in my life where I am realizing that I am refreshed and willing to start to share with and willing to serve others.

I have recently started to believe that the experiences of my life have prepared me to pursue a career as a public speaker. As someone who brings value to others surrounded by the pressures and challenges of cross cultural living and working, especially those in the midst of the cultural transition process.

So I think I've found my passion in life!
... now it's time to pursue it! Thanks for being on this journey with me!

A new beginning

In transition, a new place 1000 miles from the ocean. in a new home next to the Rockies. come Monday it will have been three weeks!

limo driving is behind me. the future is in front, I wonder what is in store?!

this move is a challenge and full of good promise. like the settlers heading west we are on our own adventure of discovery in unfamiliar geography. the weather is new and exciting as are the majestic views... i wonder if I'll still feel this way come winter.

A month behind us and a month before us

It never ceases to amaze me what a little time will do. the last time I wrote I had just started a new job, well I'm driving for a limo company as a chauffeur and loving it. the hours a crazy like 4am pickups and midnight arrivals etc. but it's really fun!

so that has been the last month. which included a significant milestone in my life. 6yrs of marriage to my lovely wife! this year it was her turn to plan the fun (we alternate each year with a surprise for the other) and as always she was a master of surprise.



day spent at the long beach aquarium and an evening dinner theater cruise was awesome!

my woman rocks!! I'm so grateful to be married to my better half.
marriage is a great gift. it is amazing to have someone witness your life and all it's incarnations. to have a great companion & friend on this journey.

the month before us is one of hustle and bustle. we are uprooting from California and making the trek east to the Rockies. Colorado here we come. I just paid our last rent check for our apartment here...

I'm a little nervous and excited at the same time. isn't change always like that?

A new job

Today I started a new job. I'm training this week with a limo company. so far it's been great. I'll be riding along with a few other drivers for the next couple of days and then I'll be on my own routes soon. Maybe by Thursday. I'm also contemplating subbing for the local school district until my hours pick up.

I love driving!! I'll see if I love it after doing it for a full time job. Just got to wait and see.

One of my best friends spent Saturday and part of Sunday with me. It is amazing how as much as things change yet how similar they tend to stay. 12 years of friendship and here we are still discussing and philosophizing like the college days of old. more world weary and a little slower (a few creaky bones) but still dreaming nonetheless!

Staying up till 2am ain't what it used to be the next morning. Longer it takes now to recoup!

my mind is still and I hope always is youthful and inquisitive.

Searching for God knows What

Donald Miller is one of the most gifted writers I've come across in a long time. He lays out life and faith with acute attention to our common human condition. Why we seek to find our identity and value from anything and everything outside ourselves, is a questions I've pondered for quite some time. Is the striving how are are meant to be or is it because something in us is missing? Is that why we (humanity) strive for status, fight wars, and push at the bonds of knowledge?

I highly recommend "Searching for God knows what" by Donald Miller.
also his other book "blue like jazz".

So many questions to ponder. so much life to live

Yippee!

I just found out that I've been accepted to school Colorado! Yippee!

This next year will be spent in a new place learning a new skill. I hope it will be enlightening and invigorating. It will be another year of change, (the one constant in life) of introspection and artistic expression.

the actual move is a couple of months a way so to keep busy in the meantime I've been looking for part-time work. I'd like to get steady work driving. I love driving!

I could see myself as a limo driver. I had an interview today with one company so I should hear back from them in the next couple of days.

what a few months will do!

Let's see... I had just started acting class, my vocation was sales and I had yet to have my birthday. My how time is a' flying!

I'm halfway through acting class, plans are in motion for me to move east to the Rockies and I've left that sales job behind.

going back to school full-time is what is drawing me east and a slower pace of living. and hopefully cheaper way as well. just 3months left here on the sunny coast.

I've applied but not heard back from them, however the commitment is made to move regardless.

jumping into the unknown I'm fraught with interpretation, you would think that I'm an old hat at it. no I still get those butterflies.

some days I'm more confident than other days. Last couple of days not so confident.

maybe not employed at the moment has something to do with it. I have realized that my Identity is meshed with my work or lack of it. why is that? It is like my validation as a man, must come from outside me. I can see the strain on my wife. I am meant to be the bread winner, at least that is what I feel.

my energy is sapped. it may have something to do with a lack of spiritual life. or a spiritual life that is neglected. I know it is a consequence of my choices.

I'm stuck in a rut. a malaise before the move. Time to change habits. today is not over I will not give up! knowing what to do and doing what you should are two different things.

God give me grace and strength to be all that you created me to be