what a few months will do!

Let's see... I had just started acting class, my vocation was sales and I had yet to have my birthday. My how time is a' flying!

I'm halfway through acting class, plans are in motion for me to move east to the Rockies and I've left that sales job behind.

going back to school full-time is what is drawing me east and a slower pace of living. and hopefully cheaper way as well. just 3months left here on the sunny coast.

I've applied but not heard back from them, however the commitment is made to move regardless.

jumping into the unknown I'm fraught with interpretation, you would think that I'm an old hat at it. no I still get those butterflies.

some days I'm more confident than other days. Last couple of days not so confident.

maybe not employed at the moment has something to do with it. I have realized that my Identity is meshed with my work or lack of it. why is that? It is like my validation as a man, must come from outside me. I can see the strain on my wife. I am meant to be the bread winner, at least that is what I feel.

my energy is sapped. it may have something to do with a lack of spiritual life. or a spiritual life that is neglected. I know it is a consequence of my choices.

I'm stuck in a rut. a malaise before the move. Time to change habits. today is not over I will not give up! knowing what to do and doing what you should are two different things.

God give me grace and strength to be all that you created me to be